Fall In Love With You .

FML! :x

2010-08-28T17:16:00.003+08:00

Well, I should blog bah. Let's talk about my life now. Hmmm were okay. Exams, just suck's! Study soo hard but still don't have confident to do and i think fail le bah. Basketball deproving, don't know why don't have the feeling to play le. Haiss, i stop here bah. Bb

Woooo I'm back since many many days

2010-07-18T17:08:00.003+08:00

I feel damn bored. But who tell me don't go out. I tired too. It's okay because I am messaging someone right now. My life was alrights and I happy with it. Hope it continue this way... Basketball was fine too. Just write write bah. Nothing to write le. Bye!

Almost gone mad!!

2010-06-08T23:51:00.008+08:00

I'm here again, You should know why. Haha. I really very bored la. For the past few days, Had lots of trainings and matches, that's why never post anything here. Well, I suddenly feel i lost some part of myself, "Focus and concentration"! I don't have any idea why... Because of this person, I somehow lose it. I tried my best not to think so much but i still can't make it. Haiz, maybe just forget it bah.
Talk about today then. Suppose to have match tonight, but suddenly postponed to tomorrow because of the rain. The floor was wet, so cannot play. Had breakfast with junrong and went home as no where to go. Played blackshot for almost the whole day, Killed time but tired. Went to rest awhile, and going out soon. Ate dinner with jiahao around 8 plus and went tm afterwards. Walk around tm... When we going home, we gone toilet and do something retarded. Jiahao plan to lock all the toilet doors by coin. LOL!! As these is no one inside, So we lock all the doors. I feel sad after doing this, but quite funny la. Well, After today the doors will be unlock by the cleaner. Hmmm want blame also blame him la. Not me! )": After that, went home. Now, just finish bathing. Using facebook while waiting for my hair to dry. Lalala, Changhao: Why my life so bored one?! Someone: Because you had nothing to do, So yea go die! Okay, I'm going sleep now. Good night's ppl, bye. (:

Not even one day...

2010-06-04T20:12:00.003+08:00

Hi, I'm back, it's looked like my blog is dead, Haha. Life is totally bored for me now. It's not even one whole day, I just missed her already?!! OMG that's was pretty fast. Trying to control my mind now. Okay change topic, hmmm about basketball? Have training, 2.30 in school. Not feeling alright but still can train. During training, Mr tan asked us to fly, to try touch the Basketball board, but can say long jump plus high jump bah... Around the 3 point line for 10 mins, Left and right side. After that at the middle line, Quite far uh. Then with a ball and need to score for it. Wth, damn tired la. Most of them complaint that their legs were pain including me. I'm almost sprain my ankle! After training, went to eat with Andy. After that he need to go for match to play for tagawa, Jiayou then. I lazy to go as my leg was quite pain, So went home. Now sitting infront of this computer doing nothing. Don't feel like walking cause of my legs, Well i shall sleep early. Hope my days can pass very quickly, So i won't be bored again. Haha (: Okay nothing to talk about le. If i'm damn bored, you will see me here again posting something. Bye everyone~

Teach me to let go..

2010-05-22T09:41:00.001+08:00

Teach me to stop caring
When I think of what we were
Teach me to stop crying
When I see you there with her

Show me how to live again
When you're not here with me
Show me how to fight the fact
That we're not meant to be

Tell me that I'll be alright
And my life will be okay
Without you right here by my side
To hold my hand each day

Let these teardrops wash away
Don't let this heartbreak last...
Let me let go like you did
For you've forgotten me so fast.

You seem not to care...

2010-05-18T07:29:00.003+08:00

I lost something. A very important part of me. The worst part is that I probably never had it. She came into my life a cool breeze. Everyone knows that you can't catch air. But I'm a fool and yes I tried. And just when I thought I will had her, she slipped right through my fingers after i confess to her, like Air. If I close my eyes, I can still feel her around me. Keep on my mind. I replay that moment every time I blink. Maybe she still don't know that i saying all this to her. And i don't want make it so obvious and not hurting her at all. I just making myself sad thinking of others negative things that not suppose to think of. I didn't blame her at all, Just a little wish that she can care abit... I really don't know what to do now. Soon my body gets weak, my heart beats faster then usually. I'm suck in a zone, a zone where I am lost in love. Lost in love with a person who doesn't even know I exist. Love is so blind that she doesn't even notice the signs. She doesn't notice how much I think about her from time to time. She doesn't notice how much I want her to be mine. Will she ever know, only time could tell, Girl, if she only knew how I feel...

Just friends?

2010-05-16T12:54:00.004+08:00

I love you more every day, My name I long for you to say. Do you know just how I feel? Do you know this love is real? Sometimes I wonder what you think. When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink? Do you dream about me every night? Do you think we're meant to be together forever, you and me? These are the questions that run through my mind, But I know it won't happen. Your way into my heart, you did find. It drives me crazy as to what I should do, Should I risk a friendship and confess to you? Or should I keep my feelings inside, Keep them locked up, let them hide? I just don't know what to do anymore, My heart it aches, my heart it's sore. I love you more than you could know, And I don't want to ever let you go. So even if we are just a friend, I'll always love you until the end.

This Lie's become a part of me for months, I've played this game. Acting like it doesn't hurt each time I hear her name, Ignoring what's inside of me, Pretending I've moved on. As if the feelings I once had for her are somehow gone. Spending each and every day with happiness and laughs, Forgetting all my pains. But when I told myself stop thinking of her, I just couldn't catch my breath, When suddenly it hit me as the tears started to flow that even after all this time... I just can't let her go.. I really hate this feelings. Fuck!!!

Sometimes people just don't understand..

2010-05-14T21:00:00.004+08:00

I told myself to gave up on you already, But i really can't. Am i suppose to lose a friend because of this? I don't want to, but since there's no point talking to each other when i have the feeling of forcing you, disturbing you or something, let it be. I will understand... Actually the person i wrote was you, but you can choose not to care about it. Do you know what it feels like to be left behind? Losing you in such a little time. I try not to worry since i know you gonna left sooner or later but it's hard going through life knowing nothing ever lasts. It's hard to hide behind this frown, when on the inside you're on the verge of a breakdown. I've lost you that meant the world to me. All I have left of these was memories, Shortly? You have no idea how badly I want you back. The pain of losing will never go away. I'm tired of feeling like this everyday. I feel like I no longer belong. I fake my happiness to show nothings wrong. But everything were seem to be so bad. I have to do this, there's totally no fate, So yea.. bye

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so I might as well be happy.

2010-05-12T23:34:00.005+08:00

The truth I already told you, but you seem not to care about it. I know I being self hearted for liking you but I can't control my heart to beat for you. I shall stop it, But i really can't. It is not your fault, I didn't blame you for anything. Only hope to being close to you, but you just getting far away, I think? I really don't know what to do now. Feeling shag all day long.

It's like it never goes away as it explains all of my love and pain. Do you think it will ever go away ? If it does I wonder what will happen maybe a rainbow will appear and all of my pain will disappear . Or maybe the love of my life will come knocking at my door. But until, that beautiful rainbow of my love appears, My life is shadowed by the pain and a windowsill covered by the rain.

How i hope my wish will really come true.. )":

2010-05-11T17:03:00.003+08:00

So do that come true? Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections. Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it's what's in the middle that counts. So, when you find yourself at the beginning, just give hope a chance to float up. And it will, i think?
You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get. No one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true. Haixz

Why everything turned out to be so hard to control?

2010-04-13T20:52:00.003+08:00

Yea it's good that you changed your mind. That mindset maybe will lead you to be a better life's then having sad days that I never thought of. Things had happened so sudden and it is too late to do something about it. I really don't know until someone told me. A word "Sorry" can't be help i know, What can i do then? A Friend will do. You might not understand what I saying about, but it is not important while getting a great life out there with someone else. (Good luck)! ><

It is better then stay out alone and keep all the problems that I had. I had think through quite alot of matters then I not suppose to even think of. Maybe it's too much but I should think twice before I do that. And Nothing lasts forever. It never does and never means never, Because they say it does? It doesn't make sense anymore. Doesn't anyone see. I washed up on a lonely shore. This is not who I want to be... Bye

Leave me alone, tonight I just wanna stay home. I've got a darkness that I have to feed. I've got a sadness that grows up around me like a weed. And I'm not hurting anymore, I'm just spiraling in.

Love is not a game!!

2010-03-23T20:52:00.004+08:00

Its hard to hold on to something that I know would never be mine in any way I think of, I just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last, Some don’t even start. "Life isn’t fair, It’s just fairer than death, that’s all." A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go sooner or later. Thinking so much for you, But in the end did I get anything back? I don't ask for much, Just a little wish that you treat this relationship seriously and nothing else. Whatever reason that I heard, I just accept it but now what do you let me think? I think I'm just a fool staying here with my whole heart to wait the right time. Tell me when, and what to do next... I didn't blame you till now, I still treat you the same and stop thinking so much. That's all I can do bah. Haiis such a useless guy that can't even do something right. Sometimes I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytimes l'm happy, something bad always happens. So let's be sad for the time being... You know what I mean yea. And no matter what happen, I will be there for you. Just let me know. Thanks. What I want, I had just said. Now is your own decision whether you want it anot. I won't force anyone like you, I will respect your choice in the end.... Byee

I don't really get it! :x

2010-03-21T21:33:00.003+08:00

Just think over and over again, many things gone through my mind, I can't even control a single problems that I face. I don't really want to share it out because i think it is also no use. So let this be the things that I know and for you to find out if you really want to. Saying about freedom yea? I think I should not interfere your life as it is your choice to decide whether you want it or not. So I just forget it and give in as much as I can. Making whatever lies to cover a matter and giving so many fake smiles in order not to let you see the true of me. How many times does this happened? Countless yea. But I can't let this happen forever... until the end. I really don't know what to do now. ): I know what is the main reason that we had to face but I think this is out of the control about freedom. In the end, I didn't really blame on you because this is all my problems, my mind. I don't feel like saying out so I went on writing here so I can feel much better I think? I don't need any comfort or comment but only see and go away. That's all you really need to do. I not sad but only feel uncomfortable so didn't say all these to you directly either than indirectly. Sorry...

What if these day's come? ):

2010-03-20T01:29:00.004+08:00

(If) On the worst day of my life, I find myself writing each thought. Thinking of my only love, wishing she was here, but she's not... Though I cant express exactly how i feel, I could say I'm numb. But I wish I could understand, and only do things that fill your heart. If sometimes instead I've hurt you, I can't even stand us being apart... Its not even been a whole day, though these hours have felt like years. Ever since if you've walked out my door, each eyes will been filled with tears. Then whenever your gone, my words never seem to be enough. Maybe they are too little, after my actions have caused you to feel. What if I wrote you a book, about how my love for you is real? I'm sure it would come easy for me, because it's the only thing that i know. I'll start writing it right now, beginning with this words "I'll never let you go"... I know maybe or not, people don't see you like I do, and quite how remarkable if you are. In this life built around darkness, you've always been my shining star. When my book is finished, I hope that you'll find enough time to read. Then when you get to the end, I hope you'll realize your all that i need...

How long?

2010-03-17T11:30:00.005+08:00

Another boring day again... Nothing to do!! But later go school for gym and train shooting with Andy, Weikang and Junrong. Maybe that's the only way to kill time. Last night slept at 1 plus, can't really sleep. This morning woke up by some messages =.- very tired uh. So went back to sleep again. (Time passed) Just ate breakfast, was quite full so maybe not eating lunch later. Meeting them in school at 1 plus, Hope won't be tired so i can train more... Hmmm nothing to write, so i go play some games then. Bye :)

I'm sure la. (:

2010-03-14T00:06:00.002+08:00

Hello! Hmmm... this morning wake up at about 8.25am. Was quite tired then went back to sleep again. Woke up at 10 plus, Still tired but cant sleep already... So lie on the sofa watching some show. Until don't know what time then go brush teeth and bath. After that packing things for training while waiting for mum to done cooking. Have no appetite to eat so just ate abit then don't want le. (Not really want to waste food!) After that meet friends then go school together.During training was quite slack uh, But don't know why so tired.. After training went tm there to eat KFC with Andy, Junrong, Wilson, Junwei and Markus. Then go walk walk see around... Was kind of bored but still have some fun. After that went home. blahblahblah.. Don't feel like writing le. Tired haha. So yea, good night. (:

Holiday!! (:

2010-03-12T19:30:00.003+08:00

I back! (: Having common test this week, was kind of busy so never online. Today last paper, next week holidays. Don't know go where but will have training between those days. So tired now, Just now went gym and train shooting. National coming, Hope we can play as good as we can and play as far as possible. Jiayous team! (: Hmmm, about the common test, I think will do quite badly. Take 2 papers back, Chemistry and Social studies. Pass chem but failed ss. Was quite disappointed but hope rest of the papers can pass. o.O Have training tomorrow at 1pm, after that don't know where to go. Maybe will meet some friends or just follow my team mates. Nothing much to write already, maybe later will post again... See first, If not then tomorrow then post. So yea to be continue later or tomorrow. Hahahah (: Byes

(: (:

2010-02-28T22:16:00.003+08:00

Hmmm... Last night sleep quite early, Until next morning 9 plus. Wake up still tired so went back to sleep. Forget meet jiahao for swimming around 10am. Was kind of late le, sorry uh. ): Next Sunday we go together okay haha. After lunch, meet my besty friend at 2pm at inter. Don't know where to go so we went to east coast park. Took cab there, reach about 3.30pm. Weather was very very hot, so went to mac, chat and eat. After that send her back home. BlahBlahBlah. So bored now, Nothing to do. Sleeping soon uh, have training tomorrow. Jiayous team! (: Byee
(I look forward to the places we go and the things we’ll be put through. But remember that I’m vulnerable and I can’t stand to be hurt. I want to be at the top of your list, But I don’t have to be first. Believe me when I tell you that I love you with all my heart, that I’m here for you forever and always, Just like I was at the start...)

(:

2010-02-26T20:44:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. finally online! My life becoming brighter and my mood wasn't that bad already. About my team, We start to get along well and had played a nice game with dunman high. Looking forward to final on tuesday with Anglican high. Hope we win. (:
Have Care and Share tomorrow, Hope will be fun haha. After that need to clean the whole school for CIP, for basketballers, And have training too...
/Many moments pass in life, Some we joyfully remember, Others we choose to leave behind. Grateful are we when our memories, are blessed with blissful moments of love, peace, and affection. Loved are we when in affection. Our hearts are gladly kindled, Stirred by loving friendship from those we come to meet, whose presence spark in us that Light and Sound Divine reminding us once again the true essence of who we are.

Getting bad. ):

2010-02-18T19:46:00.004+08:00

Er didn't post for quite long yea. Can't really sleep now. ): And Really have no mood to blog and online also nothing to do. Well, my mood getting worse uh. Don't have the feeling to do other things. Basketball, happened alot of things. Don't know when can solve this problems, So that our team can start to play well for tournament. Now for us, even the second round got problem to get in uh. I really really hope that we can build up our team work and change the attitude to a better one. If not really cannot make it...

If I believe will you break me down? If I believe will you still come around? I'm holding my breath waiting to see is there a future of you and me? In my heart it's already real. Allowing myself the chance to feel, But i afraid this you know. I am taking a risk and letting it go. Let the beginning linger when the others don't. No need to rush, and I will be right here letting you respond and alleviate my fear. For second you'll be around, I afraid to believe that is what I have known, Deciding instead to choose being alone. But now that you're here, All your words I hold so real even though you are out of reach. So I say if I believe Could you, would you, Never leave?

With an air

2010-02-07T14:35:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I heard your voice,
This is far from what would be my choice,
I'd give anything to see you smile,
Something I haven't seen in a long while,
I know you're upset with me,
And you have every right to be,

If angry is what you are,
Then unleash your fire,
Have it out with me so I know what is wrong,
I can take anything you dish out, cause I'm strong,
And I will still have just as much love for you,
Because unconditional love is what I have for you,
If only you would just talk to me,
And then you wouldn't be so angry.

It's my fault, I made the mistake,
And I hope my apology is what you will take,
I was so confused and lost,
Which turned out to have a big cost,
For not only was it the love of my life I did loose,
But also you, none of which I would choose.

My feelings got mixed up and only after it was too late,
I realised that I had made such a big mistake,
But even if what I thought came to pass,
Your happiness is all that would be cast,
Seeing you happy is all I could want for you.

So never forget my promise to you,
I will wait for you as long as I have to,
No matter what happens or how much it hurts,
You will never have to go on a search,
For I will always be here,
Waiting for you with a tear.

There's really no hope

2010-01-27T17:45:00.004+08:00

Another month has passed and you're still on my mind
I would think after so much time it would get easier,
But it hasn't. Little things remind me of you, even when I try not to
It makes me sad and that's not how I want to feel
So I decided to write again and get you out of my head
Even if it's just for a little while.
My moments of nothingness make me feel alone
But I still prefer it to moments filled with what ifs and have nots
Regret is a terrible thing,
Touching heaven even worse
I wonder if that was my one chance at happiness.
My one chance at being complete
My fear is that it was and now it's gone
What can I do now?
I don't know if you deserve a second chance.

Given you chance to change, but it seem like nothing.

More and more things happened that you know too.

Things will spread, So you can't bluff through my mind.

So i will let you be whatever you wanted to be.
And I do know that you and my soul craves it
To find another love, another soul mate
Is that even possible?
But I keep moving on, It's all I can do.
I have to remember to breath in and breath out
It use to be so natural, but Now it feels like burden
I think I'm flawed, Broken in a way that I can't figure out
I don't know how to fix it and wonder if it can be fixed
I've forgiven you, but I can't forgive myself.
So more time will pass
Day after day, it's all the same to me
I'm not who I was before and I'm not who I want to be
I don't know what I am
I'm just alone, empty, sad
So here it is, another poem you'll never get to read
And I'll still pour my heart out.

I know it wont happen and never.

2010-01-24T12:36:00.002+08:00

Something’s never change,
Even when things get old,
There still exist the little things,
the lies and deceit.

Broken hearts and truth never told,
yearning for a kiss and someone to hold,
something’s never change.

Wanting to be your one and only,
At times you left me cold and lonely,

But today is a new day,
Nobody to blame,
Something’s never change.

But starting from tomorrow,
I'll spread a clean sheet over my heart,
There still exist the little things,
the lies and deceit.

I will cry no more,
Beginning my new life and opening another door.
Tears streaming down my face,
as I see you walk away

knowing that today
might be the last day.

I ever see your happy smile
but in my heart I know that I will see you again

except right now
I feel like my life is going to end.

I will put on a happy face
so that you cannot see my sadness

because hiding sadness is what I do best.
As we hug our last hug
I hold back all my tears and try to smile

and you can see me struggle and say it is ok to cry
but you do not know a part of me just died.

Now you turn your back and walk away
and as a single tear rolls down my face

you turn back to say I love you
I cry the hardest I ever have
as I see you walk away
but in my heart I know I will see you again someday.

BlahBlahBlah ~

2010-01-15T20:24:00.003+08:00

Now the time has come. I put two bullets in my gun. One for me, and one for you. Oh darling, it will be so beautiful. It is hard to tell of happiness. Time goes by and we feel safe soon. If there is one thing
That irritates me to the point of screaming
It is my inability to remember what on earth
I've been dreaming.
When I wake up my dream is as clear
As a colour print of it.
Two seconds later my mind has slipped out of gear
And I can't remember a hint of it
Although I'm sure it was all vivid and delightful
And recalling it would make me more aware and insightful.
Chances of dreamtime romances I am determined to take
Since I do not get many offers by staying awake.

Useless for everything. Hopeless guyy ever.

2010-01-09T19:54:00.002+08:00

I am someone that can't do everything well. And I walked past a dead face even though the person was alive. I saw my eyes in the mirror and cried at the sight. I looked at a person I didn't know and I met a friend. I got heads to turn when I walked past. I learned a lot about myself when I lost a new friend. I cried every tear in my body when I thought about love. I got hit bad then got back in the ring. I climbed a mountain of rocks and saw an eagle fly over my head. I heard terrible things about myself when no one thought I was listening. I realized I was somehow strong when I didn't cry when it hurt evertimes. I found out who I was when I was with someone else. I thought I was lost forever when a friend found me. I held a life in my hand and it was my own. I was a pawn in someone else's game, so I surrendered to a brook. I walked the fine line between surviving and not wanting to survive. So I still am, I am someone who no hope on it.

Take me to your heart. Show me where to start. Let me play the part of your first love.

It is love, not reason, that is stronger than death.

2010-01-09T10:27:00.005+08:00

The pain you have, I will heal,

anything you want, I can deal.

I can make you happy, I can make you sad,

but anything you do will never be bad.

Words of hate we're said

And now we have to go.

Part our separate ways

Because the love of yesterday

Will never be the same.

Time and time again

I promise not to care.

I lie, say I'll move on

That I wish you better luck

But I lie to you and myself.

Somehow I do wish we hadn't whether.

There's pain in my heart

that won’t let me live.

There's pain in my life

only you can relief.

I'm so glad it was you

that stayed by my side.

You know and I know that

our love will never die.

Our love will always come through.

It's like a dream come true....

Chances

2010-01-02T12:40:00.002+08:00

I'm so sad and depressed
Is all I want to do is rest
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can't fight

I think of you lying in that bed
And wonder if there is anything I could have said
I wish you were still here
But I know that you are still near

I love you more than you know
I just wish you didn't have to go
I just want one more day with you
And I know thats what you would have wanted too

I miss you more and more each day
There is so much more we had to say
I know I will see you again
But my life is just started to begin.

Is there such a thing as love at first sight?
That's the question I used to ask
Until I laid eyes on you.

How is it possible to feel so much for a
stranger, a passerby?
Love has no limits, no color, no time.
That's when I realized I had fallen in love.
Love at first sight.

Stay as One Heart, One Love, And Forever ~

2010-01-01T12:37:00.003+08:00

I'll give you my heart, I'll open it up, Will you listen to its small still voice? For soft and quiet my heart will speak To the one I'll call my girlfriend. Did you hear it dear? Did you listen well? Do you understand what it said? For deep is the love that it speaks to you, Deep as the rose is red. So now or sooner, take my heart and treat it well And forever in this life, Come walk with me, your hand in mine, The one I'll call my wife. If there's one face I want to see, so beautiful, so true, one smile that makes a difference to everything I do. If there's one touch I long to feel, one voice I long to hear, Whenever I am happy, or just needing someone near. If there's one joy, one love, from which I never want to part, it's you, my very special love, my world, my life, my heart...

Day by Day with no mood

2009-12-30T10:26:00.002+08:00

This few days happened alot of thing that I can't afford to take it. But its already happened. Try to cheer myself up. Thanks to people that cheering me up, I appreciate it. Hm mm.. Have friendly later with Ngee Ann. Coach was angry with us, Hope team can play well. Jiayous!

For everything there must come a last. A last minute, a last hour, a last month, day, or year. A last drink, a last coke, a last scotch, or beer. A last love, a last heart, a last kiss, or hug... Or even the last words written on a page. But the worst last thing is your last breath because what is to follow will surely be your death. I am alone, so alone. I hurt, so badly. I am ignored, and just thrown aside. I am security, for others to have. I am lonely, there is no one close, no one sees the pain and I cry, hope is gone. I am alone, and no one knows. (What i wrote here, is just my feeling. I don't need people to care about me. But thanks to people that do so)

LOSE! )":

2009-12-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

Back! No time to online. Have basketball matches and training. Damn tired. During the night, Can't sleep so early then watch tv until very late, then went to sleep about 3 plus. Hmmm... About the match today. Lose by 1 point! )": Vs Home united. Haix what a waste. Probably we out already. Next match, on Thursday, Vs Minyi. Coach's said, If we win this match against them, They will counted us in 4th place. Everything had been done, Can't change, So Just work hard and play well for next year. Jiayous team! Don't give up! We can do it! >.< For our seniors Tagawa(blue), Had been playing so well and trashing other team's, Hope they will go into the final. Haha jiayous then. (: Tomorrow have training in school at 2pm. Lazy to go, But still must go. Tired too! :x Maybe tonight sleep earlier. So bored at home now, Nothing to do at all. Maybe Find time and meet friends to have fun, Watch movies. (: Hahahaha. Okay nothing to say le, Good night every ones. Bye.

2009-12-06T01:46:00.001+08:00

Will post it tmr. LAzy to post now. Bye! (:

So what's next? (Telling everything's out)

2009-12-02T00:38:00.005+08:00

-Talk about today match. Vs T-net club, Bukit merah. Lose by 4 points. Because of me, Too solo le. Last quarter, was draw. I shoot one 3 pointer then never scored. Our defence sucks, then alot of turnover. Sorry team. Next match on Thursday, Vs Hwa Chong, Hope we really win this important match then go 3rd round. Jiayous! Okokay bye. >.<

-What happened to our love? It used to be so bright, Loving, laughing, caring. Then soon caught the night. You were my one and only love. I Cared for you very much, and I know you too. Then something happened. I never felt so desperate before cause everyone forcing me. But now, I try to forget you And try not to think about before. I love you so much. It just hurts to ponder now. Everything I have, Is because of you. Everything I bought, Was because of you. I just love you so much. I'm scared to lose you. I don't really want to say goodbye. I don't really want to leave you. But now I have to go away, and Stay away from you forever. What we had was something special. Deep down from our hearts, But now I have to go away And leave you from my heart. I'm sorry. )':

-In the end, I don't know what to feel. My Heart is dead, Mind confused and I Don't know what to do. Feel sad for many reasons and Can't handle it all. And Broken hearts are never healed. They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else. Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human. Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better? Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through. Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. We just have to live the days as they are set out and not live in the past. Do you all think about that before? O.o

-I thought I finally received a break. Only to see the sun fall. My eyes will not see what they longed to see, and My lips will not taste what they longed to taste. Why does life have to be like this. Full of hatred and pain, Instead of joy and bliss?! =(

Once beloved! Now regret! Later forget!

2009-11-30T21:14:00.005+08:00

I'm back. Malaysia trip were fine. Was sick for 2 days. Went genting, very cold. Quite bored yea. The next few days went shopping. Buy things, pants and shirt. Hmmm.... Lazy to write about the trip, so ya Stop here.
Remember ....
As I walk through life,
I look at all I have done,
And I regret everything I done wrong.
I had wandered aimlessly,
And wondered what I have become.
I have been through so much,
It is amazing I made it through.
The lessons I have learned,
I am shocked I pulled through.
The times I wondered
What life was all about.
The trials experienced in life,
Can make all the good come out.
I try to make it day by day.
Remembering what I was taught.
Just remember some time to pray,
It is important, I need it every day.
Life can be short. Unexpected at that.
I try to take its punches, Just hoping it won't break me back.
Remember who you are, Who you want to become.
Everything will fall into place, When the time comes.
Don't forget I love you's, Every chance you get.
The time maybe short, There is no time to regret.
Life can be exciting, As we all have found out.
Eventful, even busy, There is no time to be left out.
Remember who you are, And Who you want to become.
The time can be short. Don't leave things undone.
Remember your families, They are the only ones you've got.
To carry you in times of need. They can not be bought.
Remember they love you, Either here or there.
They will always be with us.
Help for things to bear....

Memories

2009-11-24T15:20:00.002+08:00

Memories flowing in my head,

Sometimes makes me feel dead.

Crushed in the heart, But needs to start,

Forgetting the bad times

That happened in the past.

But some memories don't last.

Just pray, that today, The bad memories go away.

I sit and I wait till the day that I may see you again

Till the day you return so that our everlasting love may begin

I wait and I wait because I know you will come

And my forever lasting wait will be done.

And now I sit inside my glass prison

Screaming to be let free

But all my efforts are in vain

You can't even hear me.

Look into my tear stained eyes

And tell me what you see

Am I so completely dead to you

That you don't even see me?

My screams have been silenced

My tears have been dried

As I lay upon the earth

And let this life subside.

Let the dark consume the soul

Pass into eternity

Thus the ending of this life

Of this forgotten sanity.

You were never know how I feel.

2009-11-24T14:16:00.007+08:00

Even I tell you the reason now, Would you care? Or rather you just say you don't believe me. I don't know. How you feel, how you think, ya I never know. Trust before so much, Now it seem to be so different. Others are important then me, I know. What they said, they asked I don't really care. But in my heart still, The pain it hurts so much that you never ever thought. Last time and until now, I still feel so important because i trust you, the words that you said before, are still in my mind. Is just that the person is gone. I Lose it. The heart was all along there. I know myself more then anyone do and you all should not comment's who am i, what i done. Its okay to do that. Its all over, Blames all put on me, I think i can solve it by myself?! I now than know what is trust. Even the closest one, can betrayed it. Giving a chance, it's look like nothing. I have feeling as you all have too. I can't tell what problems i facing now. And now, I tell you, You won't understand me now and ever. And i said forever, I break the promise. Ya I'm sorry. I being force. You won't know what problems i face everyday. Each day, I breaking down. nvm. I just want you to know, I'm always by your side. 5 days count down, the day that i going to celebrate, but now, no use. As i won't be in Singapore. Don't know whether want to buy things for... Hope you are happy. I think i can only do is open the book and read through... What is love? "To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."

Already gone and gone forever.

2009-11-24T00:23:00.003+08:00

I'm back. Nothing to do, Continue blogging. Maybe post some thing. Things happened so fast, really fast. I don't like it. But i had to choose one of them. The main reason is, you all don't know. nvm. Put all the blame on me, I like it. I solve it by myself. I can feel how sad a person are, and I'm really down. I like the way i doing now. It's all about sadness. / When you look at me, do you even see me. I'm always there but you don't seem to care. Am I nothing to you now? Do I have any time at all? People say what they say, they talk about me, I act like I don't care but in reality, I care a lot. You never seem to mind that I'm dying, dying from all the pain in my heart. I love the rain because you can't tell I'm crying, I'm crying skipping, laughing, smiling. It's all because of you. I'm crying because it hurts that you don't even care. I'm skipping because I want to see If I can fly to you. I'm laughing the pain I feel in my heart. I'm smiling because I remember all the memories of you and me. You see me now, but I don't really care. I'm just glad your here, one last night, one last breath. I take it all tonight, you wrap me in your arms and say you love me the last word. I wanted to here all my life now, it's coming to an end but... then I remember it's all just a dream. It's all just make believe that will never happen because your already gone and it's too late. I'm already dead there's no one here tonight, the next morning. I'll still be dead and you'll be gone so far away. And i left the world with nothing.

2009-11-19T23:26:00.001+08:00

Not going to post for months.

Maybe my blog is dead.

No mood!

2009-11-12T12:05:00.002+08:00

Yea, It happened again. Must face everything now... Sadness bring me into another life. Can't really describe What i am now, Doing nothing too. Feeling useless and just want to stop what I am doing now. )': It hurt every time, Have to settle fast. :x Ask me to use to it? I don't know i can anot. Please cheer up. Seeing you like that only making yourself more sad. I'm just worry about you. If there's a way to make you happy, I willing to try everything. Each day passing by, I dont feel like doing anything and just wait. Losing you like lost a heart. You are my everything, It hard to forget you! )'; Every new beginning, comes from some beginnings end. Every time you kill me, I am born again. Every time you close that door, Another door is opened. And every time you say goodbye, a different word is spoken. Every time you look at me, my back is facing you, And every time you ask to see me, I'll have something else to do. Every time I join your game, You're not playing fair, And every time I really love you, I pretend that I don't care.

What to do? Just feel and hurt?

2009-11-08T11:21:00.007+08:00

If tommorow comes and the coffee isn't made,
would anyone notice that I wasn't here.

If you go to get a shirt and find it isn't clean,
would you just think that I was being mean?
Would you check out the window to see if i was here,
or would you just think that I was somewhere near?
And when dinner was not on time,
would you look for me to tell me,
you just committed a crime!
And when you had to cook for yourself,
would you wonder why i'm not on time.

Then the next day comes and you find I'm still not here,
would you shed a tear?
Would you ask yourself, maybe I should have called him more.

Or would you just say, he's probably at the store.

And when you finally see that I'm gone for good,
would you miss me or wonder why I left?

Nobody ever notices, until it's too late
then it's the tears that make you hurt so bad.

For you knew this day would come,
yet you never prepared.

I say that she knew I loved her,
but did she really?

[ME]
Did you pick up the phone when she needed you,
or were you just too busy to listen to her pain?
Were you ever proud of her,
did you tell her?
Or did you say, she knew I loved her.

I'm just useless for her,

Cant do anything for her when she get hurt.

Sometime still attitude her, and make her cried.

What the hell I wants? Maybe I'm too sensitive.

I'm sorry for everything that i done wrong, and

I can leave you if you really want to because,

I don't want to hurt you anymore...

I hate myself!

2009-11-08T01:20:00.005+08:00

...hate......... hate
...hate......... hate
...hate...hate.hate
...hate...hate.hate
...hate......... hate
...hate......... hate
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.....hate..............hate
.....hate.hate.hate.hate
...hate...................hate
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...hate....................hate

...hate.hate.hate.hate.hate
...hate.hate.hate.hate.hate
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...hate.hate.hate.hate.
...hate.hate.hate.hate.
...hate
...hate.hate
...hate.hate
...hate
...hate.hate.hate.hate.
...hate.hate.hate.hate.
...

MYSELF

Regretted!

2009-11-06T13:11:00.002+08:00

Do you all happy now that i choose basketball and give up that i love the most?! =.-

You only see what I choose to show, But there is a lot that you don't know. I regret a lot because I knew, Just how wrong they were to do. It was really stupid and now I suffer. From all the things I used to cover. I let it out 'cause I thought it was right, But all it gave me was a lot of fright. Some people know and others don't. All the other people always won't!

Why did I decide to change the course of my life? I was impatient and naive that I let people take advantage of me. My life has turned up side down and now it is crashing down. I thought I could find love and hold it, blindly I went for it. And tried to hold on to someone I felt the same. But only cause myself heartache and pain, because somebody keep blocking our way. I gave all that I had my mind and body and soul. For what, only to be told that I was the one she wanted to hold. That I was just someone she could control. You don’t know what that has done to me. How stupid am I that I cry and cry. Cry out why? Why? Then I am reminded of the choices I had made. Those choices have changed my life completely. I have done this to myself. No one is to blame. I thought if I ignored the pain. The pain would go away and things would change. But I was wrong things have changed. I do not feel the same. For what was once love has turned to hate, but i wont easily give up my love for her. And now I must make my escape because someone keep forcing me to do that. Basketball! Suck it. Force me to no end, I tell you, How hard you all had tried, There always no change. I will love her forever. I meant it! <3>

Do you know what I really want?

2009-11-02T09:48:00.003+08:00

Alone,
Alone starring at this walls thinking about a reason why,
Why everyone I cared for seamed to slip away from me?
I was me all the time gave them comfort when no one else could
Listen when no one else did.
Still,
Not good enough, Maybe it’s just me
Am I silly? I’m young I know
But even though I feel like I’m doing something wrong.
Why can’t anybody tell me how to be? Or what I do wrong?
Cause even I need love, I Don’t care about money or fame
I want the real thing, Real love, Unbeatable love!
That is my only wish.
Love me for who I am, And never take me for granted,

If not both were ended up with pain and hard life.

Maybe it just for me but not you? Who knows?
And I promise I do my best to give you heaven.

Why? After breaking up, Those words will came to your's mind.

2009-10-31T11:57:00.005+08:00

Yesterday...
I was full of love for you
filled with hope that you'll love me too.
The sight of you give me pure happiness,
among them all I considered you the best.
Today...
I found out that you already love someone.
I gave my whole heart but you offer me none.
I am hurt, so I weep and cry
as I watch you leave like a tear in my eyes.
Tomorrow...
I will let you go, since you tore me apart.
You made my life miserable,
cause you break my heart.
But no matter how hard I try
I just couldnt say GOODBYE ...
In the heart, My love still there for you forever.

With Out My Love

2009-10-31T11:47:00.003+08:00

As I sit here alone in the darkness, I wonder how you are doing, I think of you all the time, All I have left is a dime, I miss the love I call mine, all I want to do is wine. Alone in the darkness, I look out to the world I used to know. The light burns my eyes, the memories fills my head, your laughter replaces the silence. Alone I sit here in the place where we used to talk all night, I still hear your voice, I still feel your touch, and I still wonder if we ever could survive together. I loved you, and I thought that you loved me back. My heart still feels like it will explode when ever I'm around you, my mind still freezes when ever you ask a question, we both said good-bye like we would never say a word to each other again, I could never tell another lie to your face, My world came crashing down in a second, it felt like my life was spiraling down the drain of dreams... Without you, Its just nothing to describe.

"2nd Month With Elaine darling" <3

2009-10-29T10:40:00.012+08:00

Happy Second Month Dear! <3 It's a brand new life with you. There's too much unexpected things happened. I hope everything going to be great and no misunderstanding situation yea. And just know that i will love you forever, Problems we face together as one. Anything Must tell me kay?! (: It takes two special people, To make a loving pair. There’s a joy just being around you, A feeling I & You love to share. So best anniversary wishes to you, Bringing years of joy and pleasure. May each month keep getting better, With memories to treasure.
A Love That Will Stay Forever! :)

I will walk with you without going astray. Even if hardships ahead they lay, I will give you a loving hug everyday. No matter whether the sky is sunny or gray, I will shield you when harm comes your way. You must not be hurt come what may, I will make your days happy and gay. For your fears I will try to allay, I will remember the days to buy you a bouquet. "Till I’m old and my memory is in disarray, I now only have this to convey, That I love you and my love is here to stay".

A Love To Smile Upon! >.<
In my heart I can clearly detect. These feelings to cherish and protect. A Girl whom I can connect And who has given me more than I expect. I’m certainly beginning to suspect, That as a lover you are simply perfect. Making me love you in every respect. Can’t help but smile whenever I stop to reflect.

LOVE ~

2009-10-27T20:53:00.004+08:00

A Gentle word like a spark of light, Illuminates my soul and as each sound goes deeper, It's YOU that makes me whole. There is no corner, no dark place, YOUR LOVE cannot fill And if the world starts causing waves, It's your devotion that makes them still and yes you always speak to me, In sweet honesty and truth. Your caring heart keeps out the rain, YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof. So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life. I'll do the same for you, you know, My Beautiful, Darling. <3
And I will wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. But, I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it will stay. Hahas. (:
I thought love was just a Mirage of the Mind, it's an Illusion, it's Fake, Impossible to Find. But the day I met you, I began to see, that Love is Real, and Exists in Me. >.<

Day by Day ~

2009-10-26T22:17:00.007+08:00

Day by day, Is it really so hard? Maybe they're right? What should I do? Can this be true? Day by day, Is time the best healer of all? Who keeps a broken heart's score? Can I go on? Maybe I should at least try. They always say, There's nothing more to do. You have take life and trouble, Day by Day, Maybe I should try...

A Dream In The Night

2009-10-25T22:54:00.003+08:00

Lost in confusion and total self bliss

I've found the relation between dream and wish

A dream is a fantasy lived only while asleep

But a wish has a compass vast, far and deep.

A dream can bring true the wish never thought

As your mind wanders aimlessly and feelings are sought.

But a wish is a simple, momentous undertaking

A grasping of things while still in the making.

Now my understanding of wish and of dreams

Have broadened my scope - or so it would seem

But still I'm confused and nothing is clear

Because you are a wish, yet a dream so near.

With the breath of each day, I wish for your sight

Visions of loveliness turned to dreams in the night

You've become such a fantasy with realistic tones

I long for your love and time spent alone

Sadly enough my dreams cause confusion

For all their purpose are meager illusion

And though the dawn of each day may be cheerful to sight

I fear the darkness and my continuing fight.

In my dreams youre my lover and my world is complete

But in life your a martyr to hope so elite

I've grown to know you and care with a passion

But fear lies within mutual attraction.

If I am to approach you with some indication

Would I strengthen our friendship or cause detonation?

This is the confusion, the struggle, the fight,

Until I am sure, youll remain a dream in the night...

What's Forever?

2009-10-25T11:49:00.003+08:00

Forever takes me by a minute, While I'm here with you.

I'm falling even more in love, With everything you do.

Hold me in your arms, Look deep into my eyes,

Don't turn away and let me go, Don't ever tell me lies.

I swear I'm never loose you, In my arms I'm always hold.

I'm never let you slip away, And leave nothing left untold.

There aren't enough hours, In each passing day,

To find all the words, I wish I could say.

Your kiss will last forever, Your touch forever warm.

You will guide me to the sunlight, And shield me from the storm.

This is what I'm saying, With everything that are true,

I swear on my life, That I really do love you.

Life, Life, Life

2009-10-24T23:56:00.011+08:00

Three passions have governed my life:

The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of (humankind).
Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.
Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

Bored to Death Ahh !!~~

2009-10-24T23:15:00.004+08:00

'There must be something I can do.'
I'm lying on my bed, staring at the wall.
I don't feel like going out, I don't feel like staying in.
'There must be something I can do.'
I'm lying on my bed, That mark on the ceiling looks like a dog (Mad Dog) Rmb? O.o
I don't feel like talking, I don't feel like being quiet.
I'm lying on my bed, My thoughts keeping me company.
I don't feel like thinking, I don't feel like sleeping
'There must be something I can do.'
I'm lying on my bed, I'm bored!! ):

There is nothing to be afraid of, it is only the windchanging to the east, it is only your father the thunder, your mother the rain. In this country of waterwith its beige moon damp as a mushroom, its drowned stumps and long birdsthat swim, where the moss growson all sides of the treesand your shadow is not your shadow but your reflection, your true parents disappear when the curtain covers your door. We are the others, the ones from under the lake who stand silently beside your bed with our heads of darkness. We have come to cover you with red wool, with our tears and distant whispers. You rock in the rain's arms, the chilly ark of your sleep, while we wait, your nightfather and mother, with our cold hands and dead flashlight, knowing we are only the wavering shadows thrown by one candle, in this echo you will hear twenty years later... Lols! =.-

SO boring at home ~~~

2009-10-23T22:50:00.003+08:00

Err didn't went school today. Wake up at 6am, Headaches and abit fever. Feel sick yea and very tired. SO went back to sleep, can't go school. Get up at 10 plus.... Feel okok, Then go wash up and eat breakfast. Receive msg from friends about my results... Fail maths! Yea i knew that. Passed English and History. That's miracle. Chinese and Geography still don't know. Maybe failed. Haix don't talk about that le. Meet Dear at about 4 plus, go slack somewhere near her house. After that need reach home at 7 to eat dinner. =,- So she accompany me go home then take bus go home too. (: After dinner, Went down 492 to slack with friends... Chats until 10pm then go home. Quite tired but feel ok after washing my face. Lalala ~!~ Home is So bored!!! Tmr have training at 1pm. Maybe going, maybe not. Cause my grandma birthday, Need go celebrate. Go Buffet or Restaurant to eat. Hahas Okay so tmr then blog. Hmmm.... Go rest now, Bye bye everyone !! <33>

One Time and The Last Time I tell you, ILoveYou ~~

2009-10-23T11:17:00.003+08:00

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time

One time, one time

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock

Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop

And even though it's a struggle love is all we got

And we gon' keep keep climbing to the mountain top

Your world is my world

And my fight is your fight

My breath is your breath

And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart

My one life for sure

Let me tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy

You'll be my #1 girl

Always making time for you

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep, you know that it humbles me

You're by my side, them troubles them not trouble me

Many have called but the chosen is you

Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you

Your world is my world

And my fight is your fight

My breath is your breath

And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart

My one life for sure

Let me tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy

You'll be my #1 girl

Always making time for you

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there

She's got everything I need

And I'ma tell her one time

Give you everything you need down to my last time

She makes me happy

I know where I'll be

Right by your side

'Cause she is the one

And girl you're my one love, my one heart

My one life for sure

Let me tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy

You'll be my #1 girl

Always making time for you

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time

One time, one time ~~~~~

HaixHaixhaix

2009-10-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

If I had one wish. If one desire could come true. If I had one wish. My wish would be you. If I could choose, I would stay in your arms forever. Our hearts would fuse, And our love would become an endeavor. I would wish for you to stay with me. For you to be my love, You would be my hearts key. Forever my angel, my dove. Forever is a long time, To require in a single command. I will write our love in a rhyme. For it would be my demand. I would ask of this, Only with your permission. Lost in a kiss. Our love is my ambition. So I wished upon the star, The star that reminded me most of you. My actions seemed bizarre. But this wish I had to pursue. If I had one wish. My wish would be you. And since I made that wish, My wish will come true... Does my wish come true? I don't know. / The light in your eyes, As you stare into mine, Just makes me see, God's perfect design. The warmth of your hand, The feel of your skin, Moves something inside me. Something deep within Your feelings so gentle. Your love so sweet, I feel this passion Every time we meet And today I give A promise to you, That my love will be Honest, Faithful, and True. Do you? O.o

My life! ):

2009-10-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

I feel so depressed so alone, If only you knew what I’m going through, I feel the urge to call you and tell you everything, If only it was so easy. If you think I lead the perfect life, You’d be wrong, If you think I have the perfect family, You’d be wrong. If you think I have a perfect house, You’d be wrong, You think I don’t have worries like you. You’d be wrong. What happens behind closed doors, It can stay behind closed doors, But what if you went through it? Would you like to keep it behind those doors? I hear them shout, I hear them scream, I don’t know how to deal with this…. Getting irritated and can't hold on anymore! Getting my feelings and emotions out in the Open is hard…. Being in my family has made my life such a mess….. But you, Make me feel Great. You always cheering me up when i sad! What about me? Sorry. And I need you because I love you. Don’t walk away from me my beloved. Love me as I do loved you. For you is the only one in my heart. When we are together, There is always a smile and the laughter’s. The tears and the happiness, The embraced and kisses. When I hold you tightly, I feel safer and secure. There is nothing to ask more, But embed your love in my soul.

Take it for 1 minute!

2009-10-15T00:02:00.003+08:00

I look at the clock, it says 11:11, I know thinking of you, I'll never be done, You run through my mind, and occupy all my time, wondering why you're gone, I think of you constantly, for some reason i cant stop, knowing that for always, you'll forever have my heart, My days go by so slow, cause you run through my head, I said I'd love you forever, Isn't that enough said, You also haunt my dreams, if you know what i mean, I wake up often, with sweats and screams, Why do i sleep by myself, I'm alone in my bed, I know I'll be thinking of you, till the day i am dead, Now still all these thoughts, just run through my brain, cant stop thinking of you, I think i'm going insane, I feel i wanna kill myself, people say thats not what to do, but i turn and look at the clock, and it says it's only 11:12....

I MISS YOU! ):

2009-10-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

I Miss You. Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in backround of the morgue
The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never end
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head(6x)
I miss you miss you(6x)

Soo bored at home! ):

2009-10-11T09:41:00.002+08:00

Wooo yesterday 3 plus then sleep... Not tired at all! =.- Wake up so early for tuition at 10am later. Dont' feel like going but still must go. After that have, so call tuition again. Weikang and me going loyang pt there to find Ms Yeo. Maths ~ Revision! Hope i can pass my maths. I think nothing to write about it le. MOrning life are bored!! Hahas i go offline le. Bye takecares! / LoveElaine<3

An Entrapment

2009-10-11T02:39:00.001+08:00

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;

I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

Lalala~

2009-10-11T00:00:00.001+08:00

Here we are again
standing on this corner.
concrete thicker than glass
colder than ice.
we have no where to go now.

Strangers we were
once the stars hid behind the moon.
I can't see where the light is
I hate this deep darkness
feels like it's crushing down
on us like we're caught in someones
grasp, squirming to get free.

Freedom what a sweet dream to behold.

I wonder what crosses your mind
as you stare blankly ahead
wishing you would hold my hand
just this one time.

We're still watching the trees
sway and the sky sparkle
but I want to feel the heat of
the sun. The heat of your skin
against mine. I wish my mind would
speak and stop letting my lips
talk. I'm wasting time as
the moon rises higher.

We run out of space
to move and decide to settle upon
a grassy plain. I'm about to give
up and let my feeling recede to the
back of my unconscious soul when you
lean over and tell me you love me.

These three words help me see
where the light is...

I don't know what are you thinking about?! ):

2009-10-10T11:45:00.002+08:00

I'm back! So long never post le. Feel like deleting this account yea. School life was okok. Exam, Were okok too. Need to spent more time on revision. Hope I done well for my end of year exam! / Hmmm ... No idea what are you thinking now? >.<> / At first, remember how you promised? It would be soft and tender, A loving feeling to remember. But, instead . . . . You made me feel like a whore, My body laid out in front of your eyes to adore. And I wondered how this could be, We were finally together, you and me. I was only a piece of flesh, No loving thing, And that was the night this angel was stripped of her wings. You hurt me, caused pain And what was I to gain? This tiny life that is inside, When I found out I could have died. Something that once had the chance to be so sweet, Turned out to be nothing to you but a piece of meat. The pain I felt, My heart you made melt. This pain can never be recovered, Because I will always have a reminder of my first lover. Something he will not see for a while. For long, Maybe he run away...

I'm Suck this few days !! ):

2009-09-26T10:08:00.003+08:00

This few days , Keep thinking of bad things that will really happened ! Haix Why can't I just stop thinking and do anything that had been told ?! Ahhh .... Feel so sad without seeing you and really hope my thinking won't happen ! ): Let's stop this !

Yesterday went tm with elaine , alistier and ian . They all want buy somethings there . First went to popular then went to buy present for someone . After that don't know where to go then talk for awhile . Then elaine went down to print some photos , Saw that , Quite sad la but nvm . / My mood were suck . Sorry . Keep giving the black face . Sorry ! ): After that BlahBlahBlah , DOn't feel like writing , Bye !

HiHI ~ I'm back !! (Cannot sleep)

2009-09-19T00:34:00.005+08:00

Hmmm ... Hello long time never post le .
Feel like deleting this blog account . O.o
Nothing to do everyday . School life is boring , Don't
feel like going school . ): How I wish I can be sick now !
Hahas . But sick are so miserable , Nothing can do about it ,
Expect eating medicine . Forget it hahas . I'm going Crazy now
adays and abit moody , SO don't care me k . :D

Er today life was fine . Lesson are somehow bored but at least
can rest on the table , and sleep for a few minutes . >.<
After school don't know what to do then go play basketball with
friends . After that send Elaine home . After 7 plus went back
Tampines and meet jiahao at 9.30 to study . But suddenly we
quite hungry so we go eat at market . After that then go home
study at my room . Guess where jiahao now ? (Go home or stay at my house ?)
Tell you the answer at my next post k ??!! / Hmmm OMG did't saw the time ,
going to 1am le , SO good nitez bye ~ <33>

Nothing to do ...

2009-09-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

Hmmm .... Long time never blog le , Feel so sianxzx ! Online nth to do , At home just watch tv or sleep ... So lifeless !! :( Nvm . At least someone got accompany me , :D . Hahas . Training were okok , Slack and tired . Tmr training start at 3pm , Before that , maybe go out slack with friends then go . Wooo hope tmr training won't be soo tired la !! Okay I think Nothing to talk le , Will be blog tmr bah , So byebye ! Takecare .

Lalala ~~

2009-09-01T11:22:00.002+08:00

Okay I'm back . Hope no one miss me ! Hahas . Erm this week , exam . The papers are somehow okay la but I feel that I will Fail !! ); Argg ... Hope I pass at least 5 to 6 subjects . JIAYOUS !! Tmr paper are lit and chinese . Later go out with friends study ... At home study can la but when boring , No one to talk with !! Hmmm .... stop writing le as nothing to write about , okay Bye !

Ya , Today is the day that i am so happy about it ! :D

2009-08-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

Hmmm didn't blog for few days , Too lazy haha . Today woke up early , about 9 plus . Ian planned to go for jogging from Tampines Park Connector to Pasir Ris Park . So I meet ian about 10 then go jogging le . Alone the way , The weather very hot la . Run abit then tired le but keep running until where we start ... After that rest awhile then go home bath . Then meet Elaine , jeeyan and peksi . So after bathing I and Ian go airport meet them and study . Studying ~~~~~ until night about 8 plus , Dad called and said must reach home before 9pm so we all go back le . lalalalala , Nothing to do now . (Keep thinking) ~!! Bye .

I always bad , YOu always right !!

2009-08-26T21:28:00.003+08:00

Don't Feel like blogging this few days . Something keep bothering me in my heart ! ); I don't know what to do . Seriously it's all my fault la , I ruined everythings since I step into your life . I don't want that to happened , But since you say until me like a bad person , Then let it be bah . I just nothing . Maybe to you , I just a useless guy who cause you troubles only . So leave me far far that you can forget me and can't see me at all . Happy ? You sad , People come to you and cares about you , but me No one . I sure you can feel that but When I care you , How do you feel ? Nothing bah ! I just like caring to a wall that nothing come out . You only care for yourself , you said I didn't care you too but at least I care abit . Nvm forget it ! You said why not like her instead ? You know love cannot be force , I dun love mean dun love le why you still want to force me ? I give up on you le , WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO NOW ? FORCE ME UNTIL NO END FOR ME ? YOU HAPPY WHEN I DOWN ? You see me like a stranger , yah so I will leave you far far ok , Go with your best friends la , HAppy right ?! =.- Bye !

Forgive and Forget you .

2009-08-24T21:33:00.004+08:00

Hmmm didn't blog for few days , Maybe too busy . Keep studying as common test coming !! Good luck for my exam and everyones here ! Today after school went airport with ian , elaine and peksi to go study . Quite tired la , So sleep for awhile then wait up again and study ... Elaine very hardworking , Copy almost the whole book ! After that weikang they all came then talk to each others . About 6 plus le so we go home by Mrt . Reach tampines then take bus home . Going to eat dinner at market , But suddenly don't feel like eating then go slack around my house there until 8 plus then reach home . Okay thats all i going to write BYE !

I just there but its too late ! I went away ...

2009-08-21T21:25:00.002+08:00

There are as many nights as days , and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course . I thought for so long , I finally Get my way out and I give up Whatever that bothering me ... But , Love is never lost . If not reciprocated , it will flow back and soften and purify the heart . But my mind , heart gets hurt , So I totally give up ! The only way to avoid being miserable is not to have enough leisure to wonder whether you are happy or not . You are the person that I referring you Now , You just wants to be happy , And Never understand how people feel around you .... You just want to talk to the person that you want , In the end just change the person that you don't like . I can say flirt , But Not really too . People wants to make more friends too , I agree but you doing abit too selfish . You like throwing the old things away and buy the new things . I don't want to talk too much about it , You know what I mean bah . Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect . It means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections . Okay bye !

Bye

2009-08-20T22:36:00.003+08:00

Hmmm .... Today school were fine . After school Have friendly match with RI , Won By 12 points . Erm go do my art now , if not can't finish by tonight ! So bye .

Ya I Suck !

2009-08-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

Don't feel like blogging now , Ps Bye !

I not blaming you At All , Not even Now ! Trust me .

2009-08-18T21:15:00.007+08:00

Hmmm ..... it seem that there is nothing I could change now . You believe what ppl say outside , but you don't really know what my mind thinking , My heart feel , My troubles came and i kept all inside my heart ! I didn't blame you at all , AT ALL ! I put all the blame on me , its also my fault . If i didn't start , It wouldn't be happened ... I write here is not let ppl to pity me , Is that I want you to know the true , Not others . I know , At first I swear that I never even care about you , only myself . I know its toooo selfish , I tried not to , And care All about you . I tried to care you and I success , But even though I success its already tooo late ! You said I put all the blame on you , and even said I cant feel every single sorry that you said to me ?! I tell you that I feel all your sorries that you told to me and its all in my heart but ..... I totally Don't what to do . You just don't know how I feel , I know its my fault that never care how you feel and hurt you too . I'm Sorry , SO SORRY . But you can't totally listen to others that said to you , Okay fine you go listen to your very best friends or friends . You know why I told you that not to care me because of this , But maybe you trust them alotalot more then me . I didn't blame you at all , Its your choice I can't change it ! I tried to stop all this okay , Be friend with you , That All I can do . ( I not Blaming or scolding you ) Trust me , I meant ALL what I just said , Believe it anot , its your choice . Bye !

I still waiting !

2009-08-17T22:29:00.002+08:00

I sit and I wait till the day that I may see you again , Till the day you return so that our everlasting love may begin . I wait and I wait because I know you will come And my forever lasting wait will be done ! I will still wait forever for I shall never lose hope that we shall be together . I now have a disease in my love and they say I may die soon , But I still shall wait and be as constant as the blue moon . The fall , is depressing and pushes me to break my already lose of fate , But no matter how hard it pushes it shall not sway me from waiting for my mate ! I'll wait and I'll wait everyday , I'll sit and wait so believe what I say . Even I wait until the time that I left this world , I will be Angel in the Heaven and I left the big door open and I wait for you .... / The day I were born , my life and love was taken away from others . I never had A chance to take my first breath , and I will never know what it's like to be held just because I love you . I will never have A chance to experience the love A family can give me , and I will never know what kind of person I would have to be . I never know what kind of changes I would have made in this world , and for that I are all sadden . So I will never get the chance to get to know you and the life you could have lead . I will be forever missed , and always loved . / I feel so scared , when there is nothing to fear . I feel so torn , but still in one piece . I feel distant yet some cruel towards the people around me . I feel death , I can feel it near . I can't forget my past , present , and future . I'm so tired of feelings of loneliness . Sitting in the dark , crying, full with regret . I feel like I have noone to trust . Do I have bad judgment or am I just too nice ?!

I tried to escape my Sadness and just kept my Secret in my heart !

2009-08-17T22:02:00.004+08:00

Memories flowing in my head , Sometimes makes me feel dead . Crushed in the heart , But needs to start Forgetting the bad times that happened ! I already there , Just see around it But you just don't really care , Maybe abit but not much . THINKING ...... I float in a pool of darkness cold presses in on me and I am alone Floating aimlessly . I reach for sparks of hope But rather than warm . They only burn , I ache with sorrow , I hunger to leave , To escape , To leave this prison ! I crave to be free , To be heard , To be loved ! ); But would anyone notice ? I am alone in this shell , You see me left behind but you ignore my pain . The key to my heart was yours but now I am alone in this nut shell , And i can't Unlock this door of loneliness so I am nothing but a seed in a shell .....

Not ur fault , its ALL MINE ! sorry (No I won't let you feel like a bitch)

2009-08-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

Not really in a mood nowadays , Something happened ... I don't want to know , You know , but i heard that so i don't really know what to do now . Last night don't really slept well , I cant sleep , Until 3 to 4 plus then sleep but 7 plus wake up le . Then 9 go eat with cousin then go tuition . At there almost fell asleep . Then have tagawa training at 4pm . Very tired la ! Meet junrong , addy , markus and chenyi . But chenyi late so we go coffee shop eat then meet him . During training , can say slack bah . Play some matches , then go home le . Haix This time , I felling down to the hell that i can't even forgive myself . Its all my fault . I done all the things just for me , I don't really care for others , Really ! Haix i regret what i had done to you , I dont treasure this chance and let you ran away like this ... I wont smile anymore , its looks like there is nothing that can cheer me up again . I meant what i had said , I HATE MYSELF AND I WONT FORGIVE MYSELF AGAIN ! Bye

Not in a mood ! Even though i know but i can't do something about it ! Haix ):

2009-08-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

Today in school , Feel very tired , But friday lesson are not so bored ... At least last period no lesson then i sleep until school end . After school don't do what , then follow weikang and lernard go cut hair then go lernard house to slack . But after cutting , decided to go back school again cause still early . Then i go play basketball awhile as they two go toilet . After playing , I don't they all go off le (pangseh) ! So i continue to play basketball with friends . Play until very tired then stop playing le , Go library study with ian , junrong , chenyi and alistier (Not really study la) . After that around 3 plus , the sky became dark , Then we quicky packed our things then left school from there ... Then go home le . (I don't really know what am i thinking of , Really ! ): Is like i keep thinking of negative things then my mood were all gone down , Haix !! Nvm byebye ! ):

lalalala

2009-08-12T22:59:00.001+08:00

Hmmm Tmr then blog , now I want go sleep le Byebyes ! (:

Fall in love with you but nothing can do about it ! :(

2009-08-11T21:14:00.000+08:00

Okay I'm back ! Last few days alot things happened , But nvm . Hmmm talk about today , School were okok , somehow tired . After school , plan to study at library but then play basketball awhile then rest . After that go 497 study with ian , markus , elaine and jeeyan . Then chenyi , junrong , vinnie , shiqing , alistier and yi jie came too . After awhile slack around the playground and play . Then we were playing ice and water (I know it's lame , but no choice) , suddenly chenyi jump down and hurt his hand as vinnie was catching him . After that stop playing and listen chenyi say story , We laugh until quite high . After that all go home , then go home with ian and junrong . (I don't know what to do now , Even i know the true but i know that there is nooo chance/choice now .) Nvm bye .

Nooo moood

2009-08-08T17:07:00.003+08:00

Erm don't really wish to blog this few days , No mood to write sth . Maybe continue to post after weeks . Sorry bye .

I SUCK

2009-08-06T22:03:00.001+08:00

Haix i had nothing to say now , It's all over . JUST SAY I SUCK IN BASKETBALL , MAYBE I CAUSE THE TEAM TO LOSE TODAY , OR JUST SAY I CAUSE BAH ! ): NVM BYE .

Jiayous

2009-08-05T20:56:00.001+08:00

Hmmm .... JUST JIAYOUS FOR TMR MATCH AND WON !! ;D BYE

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2009-08-04T17:25:00.003+08:00

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Can't walk !

2009-08-04T16:54:00.001+08:00

Didn't go school today as can't even walk . Afternoon went to see a doctor with father , after that my leg was okok , Can walk abit now . Doctor say cannot play basketball as later sprain again , More jialat ! Haix thursday have final , HOW ?! Hope that day recover bah ! Anw jiayous team . :D Bye .

Hope to get a champion ! (:

2009-08-03T21:15:00.001+08:00

Hmmmm ... School were fine today . Have match this afternoon , vs Pres High . Won by 15 poins , Yeah go in final , vs Unity . Justn ow match , I play not good enough , Can't focus . During the game , sprain my leg ! =.- Nvm will recover soon ... Next match on thursday , 2 plus start the match . Hope we can get champion !! :D Okay go revise science le , Bye

Going to sick again ....

2009-08-01T22:23:00.001+08:00

Have training today . So slack , Come for briefing only then can go le . After that meeting ian and vinnie to go red house . Junrong , Markus and Alistier came along . Then we meet at 497 . Ian came , But wait vinnie almost 30 mins ! Nvm :D Then decided to meet her at Ehub . But markus go off as he meeting his friends . After sometime She came and we walk to the red house . Finally reach there le , Saw some peoples outside the house , Then they ask us whether going in anot . After that we all go in expect the girl's ! Then go in explore . The house were somehow dark , Abit scary la But never saw ghost ! =.= Then we walk around then go out le . Whole body very itchy . After that going home le . Ian and jeeyan follow junrong go eat , alistier went back too . Then i and vinnie go back tgt . Hmmm ... reach home le , Go bath . Nothing to do now . Coughing again , Haix Sick of that !! ): BYE !

2009-07-31T20:43:00.002+08:00

Hmmm school were fine . Let's say about today match , Won AHS by few points , Forget what the points ! O.o I play not good , Haix during the match fever again ! But last quarter at least got scored some , But if i play this way during the semi final and final i sure die de !! ): Nvm jiayous team ! okay bye

2009-07-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

Hmmm Hi everyone , Don't really want to write something today as maybe I was too tired and lazy bah . Just telling you all , Friday have match against AHS , Jiayous team . Okay bye !

2009-07-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

My day was kindof Suck . Almost late for school today . Hmmm and sorry to markus , ian , elaine and jeeyan as i cause them to wait and late for school . SORRY ! Then during every lessons , I almost fell asleep . Sick again , Got Flu and Fever . Nvm won't die ! 1pm left classroom and go change . During the journey , Fever again and sleep for awhile . During the match , FEVER AGAIN !! Waaa then Offence and Defence are not good . Haix I going Crazy le la . We won them 73 to 35 . ): I lousy in everythings i do and going to give up liao . And I don't need ppl to pity or care me , I not doing all this to attract ppl . Believe it anot , But it always my fault okay ! IT'S THE FACT , So put the blame on me , I won't mind , Really . Okay my fever is coming , Go rest awhile bye !

2009-07-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hmmm .... Have fever now , Maybe I just write abit la . Today match were okok . We won 71 to 23 , I scored 14 points , But I was , can say unlucky la . During the game , Suddenly have flu and fever , Haix then like no mood and strength to play liao . After that sometime then ok le . After match supports the C girls as they vs nanyang girl . But then win lor . Hmmm inside the bus , My whole body were cold , then fever came . Nvm then fell asleep le . Reach dunman then go eat with frens . Haix I don't what my mind thinking of ? :( I going CRAZY !! ): BYE !

2009-07-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Morning pei ian and elaine go eat , after that send her to school then went ian house to play . Then call markus to come too . After that go school tgt . Ian go for lion dance practise then basketball training start at 12.30pm , But still have 2 hours to training so we play around lor . Then suddenly Mrs neo said cannot train in school so decided to train at 492 . We walk there , The weather is hot !! Then training start , Play some matches with B boys until 2 plus , Coach debrief about the monday match with HCI and others two important matches .... Training over , Don't go where . Then I , markus and coach chats awhle , Then go YamYam to eat . After that meet vin and sq . Talk awhile then go 497 meet elaine and slack there ~ ! Ian finish his lion dance at 6 plus so after that he came . We play awhile , Then 7 plus I went back le cuz my mum cook dinner , So i left from there . Bathing , I don't my body tio SUNBURN !! My arms were dark ... Nvm . Hmmm now studying , Okay bye !

2009-07-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

School were normal . Morning , 4 periods no teacher , as they sick . So I was drawing art as i haven finish drawing tiger and do my english compo . After that went recess , Then continue the lesson after recess . After school going to watch AHS vs Pres High and also support our C girls as if they win , Then can go second round . ~ Watching ~ , At first Pres winning by few points but after that last quarter , AHS play well then won the game ! Our C girls also won raffles by 20 plus points . After that go back school by bus . I slept for about don't how many minutes la . Our next round vs , HCI , NVS and AHS . Hmmm ... Quite a good team to beat . So jiayous TEAM !! Okay byebyes !

2009-07-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

Have match today , left classroom at 12.30 as the next periods no teacher . Then go change and warm up . After that bus come then went up , Then sat for very long ... finally reach le . Saw jurong going too . BlahBlahBlah , then start match le . My team were play good , But defence must train hard , Too easy to let opponent go in . I play not soo good , No strength , maybe too tired bah . Haix !! After that we won 25 points , 62 to 37 . After finish the match , listen what coach say then go back school . Reach school play basketball awhile then go eat with friends then go home . (Haix I really don't what am i thinking right now , The feeling of insignificance I can no longer seem to bare . It's been so long that I've been fighting this fight , Of keeping all of the bad things out of my sight , So I'm gonna walk away now and I'm never looking back , IF I REALLY CAN !) ):

2009-07-22T22:55:00.003+08:00

我不管你用任何眼光看我 , 我都不會選擇放棄

我要堅持到底 , 忽略那些冷言冷語

而愛是如此珍貴值得我們彼此相信

兩顆心才越靠越近

沒人會懂 , 是我們的夢

當再多困難只要牽手就變得不同

我不在乎怎麼做

我知道每一次的溝通就會讓我愛你更多

每一次的擁抱溫暖讓我不再怯懦

愛是真實的觸摸美好或傷痛

That's why we'll break through

And I don't care what they say

But I want be with you !

You are not alone , i just beside you !!

2009-07-22T21:20:00.004+08:00

Hmmm .... School were fine , Lesson is more interesting , Don't why . Have training after school , But suddenly say cancel due to the english oral examination , cannot train in school . Then go home . But after that coach say want talk to us then we waited very long , outside the school . After that he came and gave us some tickets to watch kobe at the dun no where . But i never take as i pei ian go walk walk . After that decided to ride bike around the street then ian meet his friends , Can say my friends too . Thenthen 7 plus saw kok soon they all , as we going to eat so we go off first . After eating go home . (To you , It's just nothing , You doesn't care at all ! But i going to hurt this time . After you told me that , I dun really know what to do now ?!!) ): The pain that remains from that one special person's parting , leaves you forever changed And always wishing for that innocence to be restored . HAIX ! ): But sorry , i being too selfish ...

2009-07-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

To you , I just fail in everything . Whatever i do , It's like useless ! ): I will never success okay , Bye !!

2009-07-20T20:38:00.002+08:00

Haixhaixhaix ... What is the next step you going to do ? Have Match today , Won 79 to 27 . I scored 30 points today , Not happy about it . Defence is SUCK !! After that , talk about the match then go back school by school bus . Go eat with friends at budget then went home alone . Hmmm nothing to talk , Byebyes .

2009-07-19T13:47:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD !! (: LOVE YOU FOREVER <3

Morning have tuition . After that went home . Later going malaysia celebrate birthday for my father with cousin . Hahas . Okay byebyes !

Very very tired now , Hope I will never wake up !!

2009-07-18T19:14:00.002+08:00

Have training today . Have no mood to train , Anyway training were slack and somehow tired . Monday had match vs pierce , Play well team . Hmmm .... feel disappointed on something la ! Haix nvm , Bye .

2009-07-17T22:04:00.002+08:00

Happy family's !! Vinnie = Bubbles , While Markus = Buttercup , Ian = Mojojojo and Changhao = Blossom !! OMG , Blossom ! But nvm it's look cute too ! Hahas

2009-07-17T20:33:00.002+08:00

Love can sometimes be magic . But magic can sometimes .... just be an illusion . Why is my existence so perfect with dark places ? And why do I no longer cares ? When I moody , I will talk to God but the sky is empty . I really want to give up on myself already !! ):