Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Love is not a game!!
Its hard to hold on to something that I know would never be mine in any way I think of, I just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last, Some don’t even start. "Life isn’t fair, It’s just fairer than death, that’s all." A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go sooner or later. Thinking so much for you, But in the end did I get anything back? I don't ask for much, Just a little wish that you treat this relationship seriously and nothing else. Whatever reason that I heard, I just accept it but now what do you let me think? I think I'm just a fool staying here with my whole heart to wait the right time. Tell me when, and what to do next... I didn't blame you till now, I still treat you the same and stop thinking so much. That's all I can do bah. Haiis such a useless guy that can't even do something right. Sometimes I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytimes l'm happy, something bad always happens. So let's be sad for the time being... You know what I mean yea. And no matter what happen, I will be there for you. Just let me know. Thanks. What I want, I had just said. Now is your own decision whether you want it anot. I won't force anyone like you, I will respect your choice in the end.... Byee
Missing you @ 3/23/2010 08:52:00 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2010
I don't really get it! :x
Just think over and over again, many things gone through my mind, I can't even control a single problems that I face. I don't really want to share it out because i think it is also no use. So let this be the things that I know and for you to find out if you really want to. Saying about freedom yea? I think I should not interfere your life as it is your choice to decide whether you want it or not. So I just forget it and give in as much as I can. Making whatever lies to cover a matter and giving so many fake smiles in order not to let you see the true of me. How many times does this happened? Countless yea. But I can't let this happen forever... until the end. I really don't know what to do now. ): I know what is the main reason that we had to face but I think this is out of the control about freedom. In the end, I didn't really blame on you because this is all my problems, my mind. I don't feel like saying out so I went on writing here so I can feel much better I think? I don't need any comfort or comment but only see and go away. That's all you really need to do. I not sad but only feel uncomfortable so didn't say all these to you directly either than indirectly. Sorry...
Missing you @ 3/21/2010 09:33:00 PM
Saturday, March 20, 2010
What if these day's come? ):
(If) On the worst day of my life, I find myself writing each thought. Thinking of my only love, wishing she was here, but she's not... Though I cant express exactly how i feel, I could say I'm numb. But I wish I could understand, and only do things that fill your heart. If sometimes instead I've hurt you, I can't even stand us being apart... Its not even been a whole day, though these hours have felt like years. Ever since if you've walked out my door, each eyes will been filled with tears. Then whenever your gone, my words never seem to be enough. Maybe they are too little, after my actions have caused you to feel. What if I wrote you a book, about how my love for you is real? I'm sure it would come easy for me, because it's the only thing that i know. I'll start writing it right now, beginning with this words "I'll never let you go"... I know maybe or not, people don't see you like I do, and quite how remarkable if you are. In this life built around darkness, you've always been my shining star. When my book is finished, I hope that you'll find enough time to read. Then when you get to the end, I hope you'll realize your all that i need...
Missing you @ 3/20/2010 01:29:00 AM
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
How long?
Another boring day again... Nothing to do!! But later go school for gym and train shooting with Andy, Weikang and Junrong. Maybe that's the only way to kill time. Last night slept at 1 plus, can't really sleep. This morning woke up by some messages =.- very tired uh. So went back to sleep again. (Time passed) Just ate breakfast, was quite full so maybe not eating lunch later. Meeting them in school at 1 plus, Hope won't be tired so i can train more... Hmmm nothing to write, so i go play some games then. Bye :)
Missing you @ 3/17/2010 11:30:00 AM
Sunday, March 14, 2010
I'm sure la. (:
Hello! Hmmm... this morning wake up at about 8.25am. Was quite tired then went back to sleep again. Woke up at 10 plus, Still tired but cant sleep already... So lie on the sofa watching some show. Until don't know what time then go brush teeth and bath. After that packing things for training while waiting for mum to done cooking. Have no appetite to eat so just ate abit then don't want le. (Not really want to waste food!) After that meet friends then go school together.During training was quite slack uh, But don't know why so tired.. After training went tm there to eat KFC with Andy, Junrong, Wilson, Junwei and Markus. Then go walk walk see around... Was kind of bored but still have some fun. After that went home. blahblahblah.. Don't feel like writing le. Tired haha. So yea, good night. (:
Missing you @ 3/14/2010 12:06:00 AM
Friday, March 12, 2010
Holiday!! (:
I back! (: Having common test this week, was kind of busy so never online. Today last paper, next week holidays. Don't know go where but will have training between those days. So tired now, Just now went gym and train shooting. National coming, Hope we can play as good as we can and play as far as possible. Jiayous team! (: Hmmm, about the common test, I think will do quite badly. Take 2 papers back, Chemistry and Social studies. Pass chem but failed ss. Was quite disappointed but hope rest of the papers can pass. o.O Have training tomorrow at 1pm, after that don't know where to go. Maybe will meet some friends or just follow my team mates. Nothing much to write already, maybe later will post again... See first, If not then tomorrow then post. So yea to be continue later or tomorrow. Hahahah (: Byes
Missing you @ 3/12/2010 07:30:00 PM
