"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired."

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Why? After breaking up, Those words will came to your's mind.

Yesterday...
I was full of love for you
filled with hope that you'll love me too.
The sight of you give me pure happiness,
among them all I considered you the best.
Today...
I found out that you already love someone.
I gave my whole heart but you offer me none.
I am hurt, so I weep and cry
as I watch you leave like a tear in my eyes.
Tomorrow...
I will let you go, since you tore me apart.
You made my life miserable,
cause you break my heart.
But no matter how hard I try
I just couldnt say GOODBYE ...
In the heart, My love still there for you forever.

Missing you @ 10/31/2009 11:57:00 AM

With Out My Love

As I sit here alone in the darkness, I wonder how you are doing, I think of you all the time, All I have left is a dime, I miss the love I call mine, all I want to do is wine. Alone in the darkness, I look out to the world I used to know. The light burns my eyes, the memories fills my head, your laughter replaces the silence. Alone I sit here in the place where we used to talk all night, I still hear your voice, I still feel your touch, and I still wonder if we ever could survive together. I loved you, and I thought that you loved me back. My heart still feels like it will explode when ever I'm around you, my mind still freezes when ever you ask a question, we both said good-bye like we would never say a word to each other again, I could never tell another lie to your face, My world came crashing down in a second, it felt like my life was spiraling down the drain of dreams... Without you, Its just nothing to describe.

Missing you @ 10/31/2009 11:47:00 AM

Thursday, October 29, 2009

"2nd Month With Elaine darling" <3

Happy Second Month Dear! <3 It's a brand new life with you. There's too much unexpected things happened. I hope everything going to be great and no misunderstanding situation yea. And just know that i will love you forever, Problems we face together as one. Anything Must tell me kay?! (: It takes two special people, To make a loving pair. There’s a joy just being around you, A feeling I & You love to share. So best anniversary wishes to you, Bringing years of joy and pleasure. May each month keep getting better, With memories to treasure.
A Love That Will Stay Forever! :)

I will walk with you without going astray. Even if hardships ahead they lay, I will give you a loving hug everyday. No matter whether the sky is sunny or gray, I will shield you when harm comes your way. You must not be hurt come what may, I will make your days happy and gay. For your fears I will try to allay, I will remember the days to buy you a bouquet. "Till I’m old and my memory is in disarray, I now only have this to convey, That I love you and my love is here to stay".

A Love To Smile Upon! >.<
In my heart I can clearly detect. These feelings to cherish and protect. A Girl whom I can connect And who has given me more than I expect. I’m certainly beginning to suspect, That as a lover you are simply perfect. Making me love you in every respect. Can’t help but smile whenever I stop to reflect.

Missing you @ 10/29/2009 10:40:00 AM

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

LOVE ~

A Gentle word like a spark of light, Illuminates my soul and as each sound goes deeper, It's YOU that makes me whole. There is no corner, no dark place, YOUR LOVE cannot fill And if the world starts causing waves, It's your devotion that makes them still and yes you always speak to me, In sweet honesty and truth. Your caring heart keeps out the rain, YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof. So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life. I'll do the same for you, you know, My Beautiful, Darling. <3
And I will wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. But, I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it will stay. Hahas. (:
I thought love was just a Mirage of the Mind, it's an Illusion, it's Fake, Impossible to Find. But the day I met you, I began to see, that Love is Real, and Exists in Me. >.<

Missing you @ 10/27/2009 08:53:00 PM

Monday, October 26, 2009

Day by Day ~

Day by day, Is it really so hard? Maybe they're right? What should I do? Can this be true? Day by day, Is time the best healer of all? Who keeps a broken heart's score? Can I go on? Maybe I should at least try. They always say, There's nothing more to do. You have take life and trouble, Day by Day, Maybe I should try...

Missing you @ 10/26/2009 10:17:00 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

A Dream In The Night

Lost in confusion and total self bliss

I've found the relation between dream and wish

A dream is a fantasy lived only while asleep

But a wish has a compass vast, far and deep.

A dream can bring true the wish never thought

As your mind wanders aimlessly and feelings are sought.

But a wish is a simple, momentous undertaking

A grasping of things while still in the making.

Now my understanding of wish and of dreams

Have broadened my scope - or so it would seem

But still I'm confused and nothing is clear

Because you are a wish, yet a dream so near.

With the breath of each day, I wish for your sight

Visions of loveliness turned to dreams in the night

You've become such a fantasy with realistic tones

I long for your love and time spent alone

Sadly enough my dreams cause confusion

For all their purpose are meager illusion

And though the dawn of each day may be cheerful to sight

I fear the darkness and my continuing fight.

In my dreams youre my lover and my world is complete

But in life your a martyr to hope so elite

I've grown to know you and care with a passion

But fear lies within mutual attraction.

If I am to approach you with some indication

Would I strengthen our friendship or cause detonation?

This is the confusion, the struggle, the fight,

Until I am sure, youll remain a dream in the night...

Missing you @ 10/25/2009 10:54:00 PM

What's Forever?

Forever takes me by a minute, While I'm here with you.

I'm falling even more in love, With everything you do.

Hold me in your arms, Look deep into my eyes,

Don't turn away and let me go, Don't ever tell me lies.

I swear I'm never loose you, In my arms I'm always hold.

I'm never let you slip away, And leave nothing left untold.

There aren't enough hours, In each passing day,

To find all the words, I wish I could say.

Your kiss will last forever, Your touch forever warm.

You will guide me to the sunlight, And shield me from the storm.

This is what I'm saying, With everything that are true,

I swear on my life, That I really do love you.

Missing you @ 10/25/2009 11:49:00 AM

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Life, Life, Life

Three passions have governed my life:

The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of (humankind).
Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.
Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

Missing you @ 10/24/2009 11:56:00 PM

Bored to Death Ahh !!~~

'There must be something I can do.'
I'm lying on my bed, staring at the wall.
I don't feel like going out, I don't feel like staying in.
'There must be something I can do.'
I'm lying on my bed, That mark on the ceiling looks like a dog (Mad Dog) Rmb? O.o
I don't feel like talking, I don't feel like being quiet.
I'm lying on my bed, My thoughts keeping me company.
I don't feel like thinking, I don't feel like sleeping
'There must be something I can do.'
I'm lying on my bed, I'm bored!! ):

There is nothing to be afraid of, it is only the windchanging to the east, it is only your father the thunder, your mother the rain. In this country of waterwith its beige moon damp as a mushroom, its drowned stumps and long birdsthat swim, where the moss growson all sides of the treesand your shadow is not your shadow but your reflection, your true parents disappear when the curtain covers your door. We are the others, the ones from under the lake who stand silently beside your bed with our heads of darkness. We have come to cover you with red wool, with our tears and distant whispers. You rock in the rain's arms, the chilly ark of your sleep, while we wait, your nightfather and mother, with our cold hands and dead flashlight, knowing we are only the wavering shadows thrown by one candle, in this echo you will hear twenty years later... Lols! =.-

Missing you @ 10/24/2009 11:15:00 PM

Friday, October 23, 2009

SO boring at home ~~~

Err didn't went school today. Wake up at 6am, Headaches and abit fever. Feel sick yea and very tired. SO went back to sleep, can't go school. Get up at 10 plus.... Feel okok, Then go wash up and eat breakfast. Receive msg from friends about my results... Fail maths! Yea i knew that. Passed English and History. That's miracle. Chinese and Geography still don't know. Maybe failed. Haix don't talk about that le. Meet Dear at about 4 plus, go slack somewhere near her house. After that need reach home at 7 to eat dinner. =,- So she accompany me go home then take bus go home too. (: After dinner, Went down 492 to slack with friends... Chats until 10pm then go home. Quite tired but feel ok after washing my face. Lalala ~!~ Home is So bored!!! Tmr have training at 1pm. Maybe going, maybe not. Cause my grandma birthday, Need go celebrate. Go Buffet or Restaurant to eat. Hahas Okay so tmr then blog. Hmmm.... Go rest now, Bye bye everyone !! <33>

Missing you @ 10/23/2009 10:50:00 PM

One Time and The Last Time I tell you, ILoveYou ~~

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time

One time, one time

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock

Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop

And even though it's a struggle love is all we got

And we gon' keep keep climbing to the mountain top

Your world is my world

And my fight is your fight

My breath is your breath

And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart

My one life for sure

Let me tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy

You'll be my #1 girl

Always making time for you

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep, you know that it humbles me

You're by my side, them troubles them not trouble me

Many have called but the chosen is you

Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you

Your world is my world

And my fight is your fight

My breath is your breath

And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart

My one life for sure

Let me tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy

You'll be my #1 girl

Always making time for you

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there

She's got everything I need

And I'ma tell her one time

Give you everything you need down to my last time

She makes me happy

I know where I'll be

Right by your side

'Cause she is the one

And girl you're my one love, my one heart

My one life for sure

Let me tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy

You'll be my #1 girl

Always making time for you

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

I'ma tell you one time

(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time

One time, one time ~~~~~

Missing you @ 10/23/2009 11:17:00 AM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

HaixHaixhaix

If I had one wish. If one desire could come true. If I had one wish. My wish would be you. If I could choose, I would stay in your arms forever. Our hearts would fuse, And our love would become an endeavor. I would wish for you to stay with me. For you to be my love, You would be my hearts key. Forever my angel, my dove. Forever is a long time, To require in a single command. I will write our love in a rhyme. For it would be my demand. I would ask of this, Only with your permission. Lost in a kiss. Our love is my ambition. So I wished upon the star, The star that reminded me most of you. My actions seemed bizarre. But this wish I had to pursue. If I had one wish. My wish would be you. And since I made that wish, My wish will come true... Does my wish come true? I don't know. / The light in your eyes, As you stare into mine, Just makes me see, God's perfect design. The warmth of your hand, The feel of your skin, Moves something inside me. Something deep within Your feelings so gentle. Your love so sweet, I feel this passion Every time we meet And today I give A promise to you, That my love will be Honest, Faithful, and True. Do you? O.o

Missing you @ 10/21/2009 09:57:00 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

My life! ):

I feel so depressed so alone, If only you knew what I’m going through, I feel the urge to call you and tell you everything, If only it was so easy. If you think I lead the perfect life, You’d be wrong, If you think I have the perfect family, You’d be wrong. If you think I have a perfect house, You’d be wrong, You think I don’t have worries like you. You’d be wrong. What happens behind closed doors, It can stay behind closed doors, But what if you went through it? Would you like to keep it behind those doors? I hear them shout, I hear them scream, I don’t know how to deal with this…. Getting irritated and can't hold on anymore! Getting my feelings and emotions out in the Open is hard…. Being in my family has made my life such a mess….. But you, Make me feel Great. You always cheering me up when i sad! What about me? Sorry. And I need you because I love you. Don’t walk away from me my beloved. Love me as I do loved you. For you is the only one in my heart. When we are together, There is always a smile and the laughter’s. The tears and the happiness, The embraced and kisses. When I hold you tightly, I feel safer and secure. There is nothing to ask more, But embed your love in my soul.

Missing you @ 10/20/2009 12:11:00 AM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Take it for 1 minute!

I look at the clock, it says 11:11, I know thinking of you, I'll never be done, You run through my mind, and occupy all my time, wondering why you're gone, I think of you constantly, for some reason i cant stop, knowing that for always, you'll forever have my heart, My days go by so slow, cause you run through my head, I said I'd love you forever, Isn't that enough said, You also haunt my dreams, if you know what i mean, I wake up often, with sweats and screams, Why do i sleep by myself, I'm alone in my bed, I know I'll be thinking of you, till the day i am dead, Now still all these thoughts, just run through my brain, cant stop thinking of you, I think i'm going insane, I feel i wanna kill myself, people say thats not what to do, but i turn and look at the clock, and it says it's only 11:12....

Missing you @ 10/15/2009 12:02:00 AM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I MISS YOU! ):

I Miss You. Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in backround of the morgue
The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never end
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head(6x)
I miss you miss you(6x)

Missing you @ 10/14/2009 11:12:00 PM

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Soo bored at home! ):

Wooo yesterday 3 plus then sleep... Not tired at all! =.- Wake up so early for tuition at 10am later. Dont' feel like going but still must go. After that have, so call tuition again. Weikang and me going loyang pt there to find Ms Yeo. Maths ~ Revision! Hope i can pass my maths. I think nothing to write about it le. MOrning life are bored!! Hahas i go offline le. Bye takecares! / LoveElaine<3

Missing you @ 10/11/2009 09:41:00 AM

An Entrapment

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;

I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

Missing you @ 10/11/2009 02:39:00 AM

Lalala~

Here we are again
standing on this corner.
concrete thicker than glass
colder than ice.
we have no where to go now.

Strangers we were
once the stars hid behind the moon.
I can't see where the light is
I hate this deep darkness
feels like it's crushing down
on us like we're caught in someones
grasp, squirming to get free.

Freedom what a sweet dream to behold.

I wonder what crosses your mind
as you stare blankly ahead
wishing you would hold my hand
just this one time.

We're still watching the trees
sway and the sky sparkle
but I want to feel the heat of
the sun. The heat of your skin
against mine. I wish my mind would
speak and stop letting my lips
talk. I'm wasting time as
the moon rises higher.

We run out of space
to move and decide to settle upon
a grassy plain. I'm about to give
up and let my feeling recede to the
back of my unconscious soul when you
lean over and tell me you love me.

These three words help me see
where the light is...

Missing you @ 10/11/2009 12:00:00 AM

Saturday, October 10, 2009

I don't know what are you thinking about?! ):

I'm back! So long never post le. Feel like deleting this account yea. School life was okok. Exam, Were okok too. Need to spent more time on revision. Hope I done well for my end of year exam! / Hmmm ... No idea what are you thinking now? >.<> / At first, remember how you promised? It would be soft and tender, A loving feeling to remember. But, instead . . . . You made me feel like a whore, My body laid out in front of your eyes to adore. And I wondered how this could be, We were finally together, you and me. I was only a piece of flesh, No loving thing, And that was the night this angel was stripped of her wings. You hurt me, caused pain And what was I to gain? This tiny life that is inside, When I found out I could have died. Something that once had the chance to be so sweet, Turned out to be nothing to you but a piece of meat. The pain I felt, My heart you made melt. This pain can never be recovered, Because I will always have a reminder of my first lover. Something he will not see for a while. For long, Maybe he run away...

Missing you @ 10/10/2009 11:45:00 AM