Ya , Today is the day that i am so happy about it ! :DHmmm didn't blog for few days , Too lazy haha . Today woke up early , about 9 plus . Ian planned to go for jogging from Tampines Park Connector to Pasir Ris Park . So I meet ian about 10 then go jogging le . Alone the way , The weather very hot la . Run abit then tired le but keep running until where we start ... After that rest awhile then go home bath . Then meet Elaine , jeeyan and peksi . So after bathing I and Ian go airport meet them and study . Studying ~~~~~ until night about 8 plus , Dad called and said must reach home before 9pm so we all go back le . lalalalala , Nothing to do now . (Keep thinking) ~!! Bye .
Missing you @ 8/29/2009 10:28:00 PM
I always bad , YOu always right !!Don't Feel like blogging this few days . Something keep bothering me in my heart ! ); I don't know what to do . Seriously it's all my fault la , I ruined everythings since I step into your life . I don't want that to happened , But since you say until me like a bad person , Then let it be bah . I just nothing . Maybe to you , I just a useless guy who cause you troubles only . So leave me far far that you can forget me and can't see me at all . Happy ? You sad , People come to you and cares about you , but me No one . I sure you can feel that but When I care you , How do you feel ? Nothing bah ! I just like caring to a wall that nothing come out . You only care for yourself , you said I didn't care you too but at least I care abit . Nvm forget it ! You said why not like her instead ? You know love cannot be force , I dun love mean dun love le why you still want to force me ? I give up on you le , WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO NOW ? FORCE ME UNTIL NO END FOR ME ? YOU HAPPY WHEN I DOWN ? You see me like a stranger , yah so I will leave you far far ok , Go with your best friends la , HAppy right ?! =.- Bye !
Missing you @ 8/26/2009 09:28:00 PM
Forgive and Forget you .Hmmm didn't blog for few days , Maybe too busy . Keep studying as common test coming !! Good luck for my exam and everyones here ! Today after school went airport with ian , elaine and peksi to go study . Quite tired la , So sleep for awhile then wait up again and study ... Elaine very hardworking , Copy almost the whole book ! After that weikang they all came then talk to each others . About 6 plus le so we go home by Mrt . Reach tampines then take bus home . Going to eat dinner at market , But suddenly don't feel like eating then go slack around my house there until 8 plus then reach home . Okay thats all i going to write BYE !
Missing you @ 8/24/2009 09:33:00 PM
I just there but its too late ! I went away ...There are as many nights as days , and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course . I thought for so long , I finally Get my way out and I give up Whatever that bothering me ... But , Love is never lost . If not reciprocated , it will flow back and soften and purify the heart . But my mind , heart gets hurt , So I totally give up ! The only way to avoid being miserable is not to have enough leisure to wonder whether you are happy or not . You are the person that I referring you Now , You just wants to be happy , And Never understand how people feel around you .... You just want to talk to the person that you want , In the end just change the person that you don't like . I can say flirt , But Not really too . People wants to make more friends too , I agree but you doing abit too selfish . You like throwing the old things away and buy the new things . I don't want to talk too much about it , You know what I mean bah . Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect . It means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections . Okay bye !
Missing you @ 8/21/2009 09:25:00 PM
ByeHmmm .... Today school were fine . After school Have friendly match with RI , Won By 12 points . Erm go do my art now , if not can't finish by tonight ! So bye .
Missing you @ 8/20/2009 10:36:00 PM
Ya I Suck !Don't feel like blogging now , Ps Bye !
Missing you @ 8/19/2009 10:04:00 PM
I not blaming you At All , Not even Now ! Trust me .Hmmm ..... it seem that there is nothing I could change now . You believe what ppl say outside , but you don't really know what my mind thinking , My heart feel , My troubles came and i kept all inside my heart ! I didn't blame you at all , AT ALL ! I put all the blame on me , its also my fault . If i didn't start , It wouldn't be happened ... I write here is not let ppl to pity me , Is that I want you to know the true , Not others . I know , At first I swear that I never even care about you , only myself . I know its toooo selfish , I tried not to , And care All about you . I tried to care you and I success , But even though I success its already tooo late ! You said I put all the blame on you , and even said I cant feel every single sorry that you said to me ?! I tell you that I feel all your sorries that you told to me and its all in my heart but ..... I totally Don't what to do . You just don't know how I feel , I know its my fault that never care how you feel and hurt you too . I'm Sorry , SO SORRY . But you can't totally listen to others that said to you , Okay fine you go listen to your very best friends or friends . You know why I told you that not to care me because of this , But maybe you trust them alotalot more then me . I didn't blame you at all , Its your choice I can't change it ! I tried to stop all this okay , Be friend with you , That All I can do . ( I not Blaming or scolding you ) Trust me , I meant ALL what I just said , Believe it anot , its your choice . Bye !
Missing you @ 8/18/2009 09:15:00 PM
I still waiting !I sit and I wait till the day that I may see you again , Till the day you return so that our everlasting love may begin . I wait and I wait because I know you will come And my forever lasting wait will be done ! I will still wait forever for I shall never lose hope that we shall be together . I now have a disease in my love and they say I may die soon , But I still shall wait and be as constant as the blue moon . The fall , is depressing and pushes me to break my already lose of fate , But no matter how hard it pushes it shall not sway me from waiting for my mate ! I'll wait and I'll wait everyday , I'll sit and wait so believe what I say . Even I wait until the time that I left this world , I will be Angel in the Heaven and I left the big door open and I wait for you .... / The day I were born , my life and love was taken away from others . I never had A chance to take my first breath , and I will never know what it's like to be held just because I love you . I will never have A chance to experience the love A family can give me , and I will never know what kind of person I would have to be . I never know what kind of changes I would have made in this world , and for that I are all sadden . So I will never get the chance to get to know you and the life you could have lead . I will be forever missed , and always loved . / I feel so scared , when there is nothing to fear . I feel so torn , but still in one piece . I feel distant yet some cruel towards the people around me . I feel death , I can feel it near . I can't forget my past , present , and future . I'm so tired of feelings of loneliness . Sitting in the dark , crying, full with regret . I feel like I have noone to trust . Do I have bad judgment or am I just too nice ?!
Missing you @ 8/17/2009 10:29:00 PM
I tried to escape my Sadness and just kept my Secret in my heart !Memories flowing in my head , Sometimes makes me feel dead . Crushed in the heart , But needs to start Forgetting the bad times that happened ! I already there , Just see around it But you just don't really care , Maybe abit but not much . THINKING ...... I float in a pool of darkness cold presses in on me and I am alone Floating aimlessly . I reach for sparks of hope But rather than warm . They only burn , I ache with sorrow , I hunger to leave , To escape , To leave this prison ! I crave to be free , To be heard , To be loved ! ); But would anyone notice ? I am alone in this shell , You see me left behind but you ignore my pain . The key to my heart was yours but now I am alone in this nut shell , And i can't Unlock this door of loneliness so I am nothing but a seed in a shell .....
Missing you @ 8/17/2009 10:02:00 PM
Not ur fault , its ALL MINE ! sorry (No I won't let you feel like a bitch)Not really in a mood nowadays , Something happened ... I don't want to know , You know , but i heard that so i don't really know what to do now . Last night don't really slept well , I cant sleep , Until 3 to 4 plus then sleep but 7 plus wake up le . Then 9 go eat with cousin then go tuition . At there almost fell asleep . Then have tagawa training at 4pm . Very tired la ! Meet junrong , addy , markus and chenyi . But chenyi late so we go coffee shop eat then meet him . During training , can say slack bah . Play some matches , then go home le . Haix This time , I felling down to the hell that i can't even forgive myself . Its all my fault . I done all the things just for me , I don't really care for others , Really ! Haix i regret what i had done to you , I dont treasure this chance and let you ran away like this ... I wont smile anymore , its looks like there is nothing that can cheer me up again . I meant what i had said , I HATE MYSELF AND I WONT FORGIVE MYSELF AGAIN ! Bye
Missing you @ 8/16/2009 09:33:00 PM
Not in a mood ! Even though i know but i can't do something about it ! Haix ):Today in school , Feel very tired , But friday lesson are not so bored ... At least last period no lesson then i sleep until school end . After school don't do what , then follow weikang and lernard go cut hair then go lernard house to slack . But after cutting , decided to go back school again cause still early . Then i go play basketball awhile as they two go toilet . After playing , I don't they all go off le (pangseh) ! So i continue to play basketball with friends . Play until very tired then stop playing le , Go library study with ian , junrong , chenyi and alistier (Not really study la) . After that around 3 plus , the sky became dark , Then we quicky packed our things then left school from there ... Then go home le . (I don't really know what am i thinking of , Really ! ): Is like i keep thinking of negative things then my mood were all gone down , Haix !! Nvm byebye ! ):
Missing you @ 8/14/2009 07:31:00 PM
lalalalaHmmm Tmr then blog , now I want go sleep le Byebyes ! (:
Missing you @ 8/12/2009 10:59:00 PM
Fall in love with you but nothing can do about it ! :(Okay I'm back ! Last few days alot things happened , But nvm . Hmmm talk about today , School were okok , somehow tired . After school , plan to study at library but then play basketball awhile then rest . After that go 497 study with ian , markus , elaine and jeeyan . Then chenyi , junrong , vinnie , shiqing , alistier and yi jie came too . After awhile slack around the playground and play . Then we were playing ice and water (I know it's lame , but no choice) , suddenly chenyi jump down and hurt his hand as vinnie was catching him . After that stop playing and listen chenyi say story , We laugh until quite high . After that all go home , then go home with ian and junrong . (I don't know what to do now , Even i know the true but i know that there is nooo chance/choice now .) Nvm bye .
Missing you @ 8/11/2009 09:14:00 PM
Nooo mooodErm don't really wish to blog this few days , No mood to write sth . Maybe continue to post after weeks . Sorry bye .
Missing you @ 8/08/2009 05:07:00 PM
I SUCKHaix i had nothing to say now , It's all over . JUST SAY I SUCK IN BASKETBALL , MAYBE I CAUSE THE TEAM TO LOSE TODAY , OR JUST SAY I CAUSE BAH ! ): NVM BYE .
Missing you @ 8/06/2009 10:03:00 PM
JiayousHmmm .... JUST JIAYOUS FOR TMR MATCH AND WON !! ;D BYE
Missing you @ 8/05/2009 08:56:00 PM
Missing you @ 8/04/2009 05:25:00 PM
Can't walk !Didn't go school today as can't even walk . Afternoon went to see a doctor with father , after that my leg was okok , Can walk abit now . Doctor say cannot play basketball as later sprain again , More jialat ! Haix thursday have final , HOW ?! Hope that day recover bah ! Anw jiayous team . :D Bye .
Missing you @ 8/04/2009 04:54:00 PM
Hope to get a champion ! (:Hmmmm ... School were fine today . Have match this afternoon , vs Pres High . Won by 15 poins , Yeah go in final , vs Unity . Justn ow match , I play not good enough , Can't focus . During the game , sprain my leg ! =.- Nvm will recover soon ... Next match on thursday , 2 plus start the match . Hope we can get champion !! :D Okay go revise science le , Bye
Missing you @ 8/03/2009 09:15:00 PM
Going to sick again ....Have training today . So slack , Come for briefing only then can go le . After that meeting ian and vinnie to go red house . Junrong , Markus and Alistier came along . Then we meet at 497 . Ian came , But wait vinnie almost 30 mins ! Nvm :D Then decided to meet her at Ehub . But markus go off as he meeting his friends . After sometime She came and we walk to the red house . Finally reach there le , Saw some peoples outside the house , Then they ask us whether going in anot . After that we all go in expect the girl's ! Then go in explore . The house were somehow dark , Abit scary la But never saw ghost ! =.= Then we walk around then go out le . Whole body very itchy . After that going home le . Ian and jeeyan follow junrong go eat , alistier went back too . Then i and vinnie go back tgt . Hmmm ... reach home le , Go bath . Nothing to do now . Coughing again , Haix Sick of that !! ): BYE !
Missing you @ 8/01/2009 10:23:00 PM
